Wednesday, February 22, 2012

A Birth Story - Harper Alice Marshall

I guess it's about time I wrote a little something about the birth of my daughter Harper.

3am February 11, 2012 - The first hints that labour had started.
I had been anticipating these contractions for a week. Once I knew these contractions weren't just braxton hicks, I was super excited for the final outcome.

4am - Waking up the husband
After waiting an hour I decided to wake up Jeff. I needed to start timing the contractions so I knew where I was.

5am - Call to Judy
We decided to call Judy (my mother-in-law) to have her come over to watch the boys. My contractions at this point were every 2-3 minutes, but not lasting more then 30 seconds. But with my history, we decided it was best to go to the hospital.

5:30am - The arrival at the hospital
We showed up to an empty L&D triage room. They monitored my contractions for about an hour, then checked me. Only 3cm dilated!! Crap. I was actually in a bit of pain, and was hoping I was at least 7cm. The Doctor sent me out for a walk and told me not to come back for 2 hours or unless the contractions started to get longer and stronger.

6:30am - Get coffee and a snack
While getting a coffee I really started to feel the contractions and had to breathe through them. We walked down the hallway to the emergency waiting area - it was completely deserted. Jeff and I commented on how dead the hospital was...then my contractions started to get really intense, and I decided I couldn't stand to be in labour in front of people, and really needed to lie down. We walked back to the L&D unit but it was a difficult walk - lots of contractions.

7am - Getting checked on my progress
5cm is what the doctor told me, and I was really discouraged. I was in a fair bit of pain, and I actually thought I would like an epidural.

8am - Admitted to L&D Room
After some intense contractions I asked the Nurse to call in the Doctor to break my water.

9:30am - Water is broken
I was immediately informed that the baby had pooped in the womb. They told me that the NICU team would be called in to suction the baby right after delivery to ensure she didn't breathe it into her lungs.

9:45am - Feeling the urge
My labour from this point on was incredibly painful and fast. I have to say this labour was the worst, probably due to how quick it was.

10:15am February 11, 2012 - Harper Alice Marshall was welcomed into this world
They were able to get her suctioned before she took her first breath, and that was a big relief for both Jeff and I.

Harper was 7 lbs 8oz & 20.5 inches long

Having her home now for 11 days has been incredible. I never knew the bond could be so different when you have a little girl. It's hard to describe, but it's different.
The entire family is in love with her. We are so blessed to have 3 beautiful children with no birth issues. Many know how worried I was, and once she was given the "all-clear",  I breathed a sigh of relief for sure.

Having a new born sure hasn't been easy this time around (who knew this would be the case). I have endured the painful consequence of having a baby who does NOT latch well,  Low milk supply which has put me on Domperidone (increases milk supply), and then the up every 2 hours because of the low milk supply. I have good news though, after sorting out all the issues I had a great night last night! 4 hours of continuous sleep.

The boys have been incredible big brothers. Not one ounce of jealously from either one. All they want to do is make sure Harper is happy, and of course hold her. It melts my heart to see the unconditional love these boys have towards her. Jonas has taken to calling Harper sweetie.

I haven't downloaded the pictures from the hospital yet, but I have a few from my iPhone to share.


1 day old - Waiting to be discharged from the Hospital



Harper 11 days old - sleeping during tummy time.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Dear God...

People who know me wouldn't describe me as a god fearing woman. I've always had by back turned on that subject. I grew up going to church, but after taking a few biology classes I began to question it all.  It doesn't help when I read things like:

"always remember your place and always remember to count your blessings, because we deserve none of them yet God is so gracious."


What the heck does that mean? Are you telling me none of us deserve to be happy? Is GOD that intimidating that he wants us to suffer at every turn...and only if you're lucky will you truly see the wonderful blessings he has to offer?


Oh dear I have a lot of questions about this subject, but I don't know if I'll ever accept the answers I receive. I know lots of people who are happy with HIM, and invite HIS love into their hearts...Why am I so against it?



Saturday, February 4, 2012

Love Yourself More Today

I have been in a bit of a funk lately. I have constantly been thinking negatively about almost every situation I'm in. I knew I needed help.

I came across a this blog www.galadarling.com and it has completely changed my perspective and thoughts. Gala Darling, the writer of the blog, is this amazing women who is exactly who she wants to be.



She promotes "The Radical Self Love Project". The first thing Gala asks readers to do, is write in a radical self love bible and list at least 100 things you love about yourself. Things so simple as: I can clean a car like no one else, I have a "don't worry about it" attitude, I am compassionate, I love to make others smile. I'll be honest it's been hard to come up with things I LOVE about myself.

As I started out with the list I began to realize that I wrote down things I didn't know if others would agree with. I wrote down "I AM KIND", and I had hard time believing it. I know I haven't been kind lately.

The dictionary describes kind as:

kind 1  (knd)
adj. kind·erkind·est
1. Of a friendly, generous, or warm-hearted nature.
2. Showing sympathy or understanding; charitable: a kind word.
3. Humane; considerate: kind to animals.
4. Forbearing; tolerant: Our neighbor was very kind about the window we broke.
5. Generous; liberal: kind words of praise.
6. Agreeable; beneficial: a dry climate kind to asthmatics.



So even though I knew deep down I was indeed kind, I had to remember what that word actually means and start deploying this "kind" person I wanted to be. To rekindle some of those lost qualities. I think that's exactly the purpose of the 100 things I love about myself list. Simply to think you are these things and you will be.

So if you need a little self help, I would encourage you to explore her blog and soon you too will love yourself.

This link in her blog is 10 really easy ways you can love yourself more today - http://galadarling.com/article

 I especially love #6

 6. Evaluate what you’re feeding yourself… & I’m not talking about food! I regard all the media we consume as like food for the soul. What you really have to ask yourself is whether the television shows, movies, music & art you indulge in are enhancing your life or detracting from it.
I love trashy reality television as much as the next person — hell, I could name every America’s Next Top Model contestant in history! — but I know that watching it is detrimental to my life & to my existence. It’s all just drama & nonsense & it perpetuates so much negativity about body image. Maybe this sounds a bit far-fetched, but if we’re the average of the 5 people we spend the most time with, surely the TV we watch & the music we listen can be just as influential!
By the way, my definition of what you’re feeding yourself includes the people you associate with online! Are there a few people on Facebook who simply update so they have an outlet for whinging & complaining? What about that dude on Twitter who hates his job (& wants everyone to know about it)? Do you read blogs by women who talk incessant shit about other people? It’s time to cut these people out of your life. You won’t miss them, I promise!
 from www.galadarling.com